Ezra, last week you remarked that I liked writing about Goths. This is true, and I just realized why. In the community of people I watch on YouTube (many of which watch each other), there has been a lot of talk recently about who you wanted to "be" when you were younger.
For example, Alex Day (nerimon on YouTube) says he once wanted to be a (specific, I just don't remember who) member of Green Day. He played the songs from American Idiot over and over again. His friend Charlie (one of the most prominent UK YouTubers)'s mom made a video on the subject, and asked her viewers to tell her who they idolized.
I was thinking about it, and discovered the answer to both questions. When I was younger, I wanted to be Thorn from the Hex Girls (that band on Scooby Doo, first featured in Scooby Doo and the Witch's Ghost and brought back later). She and her "sisters" are "eco-goths," and Thorn herself is a Wiccan who later defeats the Witch's Ghost. I thought she was the coolest person ever: a rockstar who can do magic on a show in which it is emphasized that magic is not real? YES.
I didn't sing their songs over and over again (I'm not sure exactly what I did), but my dad remembers that I was "very into them," and I can't help but agree.
D'you remember when I wrote my 4-year-old-friend sending the Evil Wizard into the black hole when I was six? I did "worse".
A lot of litle kids are scared of witches. I never was. I always wanted to be the witch. That was my Halloween costume for years, under different names (two years it was just "witch," then "Harriet Potter," "Death," "Darkness," and this past year I was Hecate (the Greek goddess of magic and witches)). This flow was interrupted just once by being a pirate. My youngest sister used to have nightmares about being chased by the Wicked Witch of the West, while I had dreams about becoming her apprentice. I was always the Medicine Woman when we played Indians with my neighbors. You get the point.
So there's your answer, Ms. Coollike (Charlie's username is charlieissocoollike, so his parents are Mr. and Ms. Coollike). There is also the reason I write about goths so much, and also probably why I wanted magic in The Clockwork Experiment (which I have now begun revising what I have written so far). I guess I never really got over my fascination with Thorn and the Hex Girls, and I'm definitely not over witches.